Setzie

"Oh and I don't know...I don't know what he's after; but he's so beautiful...such a beautiful disaster..."

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April 28, 2006

I'm writing this from my dad's office, on the 26th floor of a really tall building...and its sooo cold, and I'm wearing shorts--you can imagine that I'm really going nuts because i'm so cold. Well, I'm not all that freaked out. But I did need to go to the bathroom earlier and I couldn't because I'm a coward and I remembered the stories of Jean, my one of my best friends, about bathrooms... one about the hung girl and another was of the faucet lady... I went to the bathroom earlier. The first thing I noticed were the dead lights on the ceiling. Immediately, I thought "aww, shit". So I went to get tissue near the sinks. I looked at the mirrors and I remembered jean's story about the faucet lady. I freaked out and the next thing I remember, I was holding about...oh, a mile-long of tissue. Hahaha. Then I went to the stalls. I looked at the first stall, there was a small vent on top that reminded me of the hung-girl story of jean. So, I went to the last stall. Above that stall was a attic entrance of some sort...kind of like what the house in Fatal Frame 3 had. it was so freaky. So I went in the middle one. I closed the cubicle door and then stood there for about two seconds before completely chickening out and running out of the bathroom. What happened to the mile of tissue? I stuffed it as quickly as I can in the trash can. There was an office worker that was on the way to the bathroom and she was startled at my sudden opening of the door. Hahaha. I'm laughing at how I must have looked. Geez, I'm a totally chicken like Shaggy and Scooby. And if someone told me to change it. I probooby would say something like what Shaggy and Scooby might say. "What's wrong with chicken? Chicken's good!" and Scooby would go "yeahyeahyeahyeahyeah."

Too bad too because I totally have a stomach ache. And I feel like I'm having a Winnie the Pooh moment. You know how Pooh just sits there oh his log and worries all the time and complains of a tummy-ache? Yeah, I feel like that right now. Like... "oh, oh, oh my tummy. My dear tummy. Oh, dear..." Hahahaha. Yeah, something like that. I am so not over my KH2 mania...I'm talking about Winnie the Pooh for heaven's sake. I dont even like Pooh.

Its still deadly cold. But Cold is way better than being all hot and sweaty--literally in a hot sense...nothing of um.. that context. Haha.

So, what did I do today.. let's see... I woke up at 6:30 in the morning against my will--nothing big, I had to go with my dad and bro to CSA to enroll.. not that I need do any enrolling.. that's in May 5 hahaha. And I still need to have something notarized...gawd, I'm so forgetful.

I'm here listening to happy birthday to me by the Bulldog Mansion...the song for the flash animation Cake Dance. It's so adorable, isn't it? I remember watching that flash animation for the first time--the Cats and Bunnies by Sambakza. That was the first one before Cake Dance. it was so adorable, I fell in love with the cat immediately. Then I watched the second one (Cake dance) and I was just so touched at the Cat's effort to keep the cake whole for Bunny. It was sooooooooo sweet. Right after that, I remember putting my status in YM as "This is how I wish love should, could and would be..." It was simple.. just being there for each other... none of that totally complicated stuff--whatever those are...whew, I just love that cat... adorable beyond all reason and sweet beyond, well, everything!!!

Speaking of cats, I had a dream about a kitten last night. Well, not just a kitten. I dreamt about my uh, future? you could say. In my dream, I knew I was married--only God and Heaven knows what or who that was, I could only remember that he was on a magazine cover. Go figure--or maybe I get the dream mixed up now. We lived in a loft and it took me all my effort to get up the straight staircase. The only really clear thing I can remember is a cat that the two of us had. His name was Setzie. I know this because he was the one thing in my dream that I was always with. I played with him and took care of him and everything. He was tiny.. He could fit on the palm of my hand. And he knew tricks...when I sang his name like "Seeeh--eehht-zee~" his ears would flick up and down alternately and would extend his paws forward...as if he was dancing. Then when I would tell him to say his name, he'd go "Seeetsee" hahaha. So cute, adorable, fantastic and weird. Hahaha

I'm having a lot of dreams about my future and my world around me...I wonder what that could all mean. I keep forgetting to write it down on my dream journal and sometimes I forget that dream until something big happens that I suddenly remember that dream. And I have this totally weird feeling...Sort of what happened with um... yeah.

hahaha. And so now I'm bored again.. what can I do now? AH! Perfect.. it's Sanctuary playing again. Awwww~ I love utada hikaru, I swear.. I love Kingdom Hearts even more!!!!

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"It seems like I always fall short of being worthy because I'm not good enough, but he still loves me. I ain't no superstar, the spotlight isn't shining on me...I'm not perfect, yes, I'm not that good...because I'm not good enough...but he still loves me..."