The One About the Flavor of Happiness

Before I begin, I would just like to say that the stupidest thing for today just occured to me. I actually took minutes to debate with myself (just now) whether "happiness" is spelled with one "n" or two. One "n" looks about right to me and that's how I decided to stick with that.

Chikusho; watashi wa bakeru janai. (Damn it, I'm an idiot). Haha.

So, now what? What was I going to rant abou--

..AH YES. See, there's just something wrong with my brain, my memory slips every other minute. I should go to my neurologist.. well, I should probably hire one first and then..

AHAHAHAHA. I made a joke!


You don't get it?

No?

Yeah, neither do I.

..what was the... OH YEAH. Right. Before I forget it again, I should probably start ranting, or talking or.. whatever.

WARNING: the following paragraph (more or less) contains scenes and ideas that come from the mind of an obssessed Hana Yori Dango fan.

If you do not know what HYD is, that's fine because I will be explaining it anyway, but for the next few ideas.. well, you get the point. This is a peek into my mind, if you will.

Let me then just explain before I continue: (if you dont want spoilers, I suggest you look away, if you dont really care, then read on)

In the end of season one, Makino gave Doumyouji a cookie that he ended up keeping for an entire year because he left for New York. When he first saw the cookie, he said in his mocking yet really amusing way (he liked Makino and his meanness was just a sort of cover up for his real feelings, if you will), "Pfft. Poorly made". He never ate the cookie and always kept it in the box she gave it in. Now, in season two, he comes back to Japan. He decides to forget her and finally takes a bite of the cookie and finally throws it into the trash (he bit a year-old cookie. i know, but leave it be). A few episodes later, he finally realizes that he cant forget her like he thought and goes to her really delapidated (i dont want to debate with myself. If it has wrong spelling, i dont care) house and they talk. BTW, this might be long...

Doumyouji: All of a sudden, its just the two of us now.

Makino: Eh? You're the one that kicked Suzumo (that's her brother) out of the room.

D: That's not true! I just wanted him to study!

M: You're so full of it! You just wanted to be alone with me, right?

D: That's not why. I just...

M: Don't.

D: ..eh?

M: Don't say anything weird right now. I'm actually at my limits. I've been through a lot.

D: ...Makino. Have you ever eaten a fig?

M: Huh?

D: What do figs taste like?

M: Well, aren't they sweet and sour?

D: You know, when you cut a fig in half, it looks like a heart. That's why they say that its bittersweetness...is the flavor of love.

M: what the heck...

D: A Pakistani I knew in New York told me that.

M: are you telling the truth?

D: But to me... the flavor of love...tastes like... that lousy cookie you made.

OMG, watching it again is giving me shivers right there!!!! There are a lot of pauses in between. Its a really dramatic scene. hehe!

Okay, okay.. here's the fangirliness now...

I dreamt of Doumyouji a few nights later. Addict, I KNOW! Haha. I forget how it starts... Basta, I'm with him and he's all depressed about how Makino isn't replying to him about her own feelings. I don't know why he knows me or why I'm with him, but I am. The part I remember clearly is at night, in one of those sidewalk ramen stalls that are still open at, what? 9pm at night. He and I are eating ramen (i've never even eaten ramen, you know. in my dream would be the first time) and he's sad. Neither of us are talking. Then I look at him with a really sad face and then I cheerfully say that I'm going out of the stall for a while and that he should keep eating. I go out, and in my dream I don't follow my point of view. It stays there with him as I go and it concentrates on him looking confused but still eating his ramen. A few moments later, my dreamself comes back in and hands him a popsicle.  "Here," I say to him (Btw, he's japanese yet in my dream i'm talking to him in english. He seems to understand what i'm saying though, just now why I'm saying them). He looks at me and then at the popsicle with a sad and confused face. Then I say, "Ramen isn't helping. Eat this. I guarantee you'll feel better." He takes it and i look ahead, away from him. "I know I'm no doctor or the heart or of the mind, but for some reason and for me anyway whenever I'm sad, I just have to eat ice cream and I feel better. Some people eat ice cream to wallow, I eat it to be happy because ice cream--" I look at him "--is the flavor of happiness".

DAMN IT I'M SUCH AN ADDICT.

But yeah, that's how it went. The dream ended there and I woke up. This dream was about three weeks ago when I first watched that episode and since then I *have* been refering to ice cream as the flavor of happiness. Sappy, I know.. but it is totally true. I don't eat ice cream that often, but when I do, sad or happy, I always feel like jumping in giddiness. Perhaps its the sugar rush, but still... It oddly always does make me happy.

I think that it is the one material thing that makes me happy all the time. It's effect is temporary, sure, but its always there when you need it, plus, the effect is always the same. It's like an upper that's not a drug! haha.

Since then too, I've decided that I'm good with creating those drama lines. haha. Not original, I agree but you have to admit.. that flavor of happiness thing is pretty darn cool! So far, I've told the "ice cream=flavor of happiness" personally (by that I mean from dream to actuality) to two people and they seem to like it. I hope that even if I wasnt able to give them popsicles, that it somehow helped them to smile despite their emo-ness at the time.

..there. That's totally random and I dont know how to close this entry. But I hope that you got, despite my weird rantings, something from this too. After all...

I'm just a crazy whacked fan. But still.. a HAPPY crazy whacked fan.

Correction: a happy crazy whacked fan who really REALLY wants to go to Japan!

HONTO NI IKITAI~!!!!!!! Kyaaa~


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some are old though. like the ones with the hats. the recent ones are the ones with me in purple hahaha.

The One With the Second Survey

~*Your Top 16 *~
1::	MUMMY!
2::	PIDENG!!! :D Raissa
3::	Micah
4::	Jeannie
5::	Raech
6::	Alex
7::	Kat
8::	Kringle
9::	Niki
10::	Pheobe
11::	Siobe
12::	Chris
13::	Raisa
14::	Midi
15::	Marge
16::	Tongki!!! :D Ototo! XD Me Little Brotha.
~*How did you meet*~
1::	i was conceived XD
2::	busmates! XD we were both new at the time
3::	through number2! :D butterfly catching!
4::	she reads SVH senior year too in 1st year! XD and then HARRY POTTER <3
5::	Kat introduced me to our late-comer blockmate XD
6::	Blockmate! fellow jpop, anime, harry potter, jun-fan, arashi-fangirl, LETS GO TO JAPAN O#$&(@* XD
7::	first college friend! "I like Harry Potter--but my favorite is Ron" "RUPERT GRINT???" "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!"
8::	second year. hahahhaha! XD 2bsorya!
9::	"are you a good seatmate?"
10::	blockmate too! laughtrip
11::	Blockmate! first to chat with! XD
12::	i was a bridge
13::	harry potter fanatic too!
14::	through Micah and Raissa. Nyehehehe. "midi? that's a weird name!"
15::	through Jean! :D
16::	when he was born! XD but i dont really recall being introduced to him XD
~*what do you REALLY think about..*~:
1::	I LOVE MY MUMMMY SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!
2::	totally my Forever. Pideng, my psychic psycho, my Mandaluyong mental hospital inmate, kadamay, ewan dami!!!!
3::	life is dull without you, dude.
4::	mami!! XD my second mom
5::	like a soulmate. Purple lover, start lover, kuripot, same level of humor (lower ka lang ata ng onti hahaha!), magulo, nakakatawa. ewwan! XD
6::	idol kita. feel ko nga minsan gusto na talaga kitang gayahin eh.. as in. pero if i get a chance to go to japan.. TARA!!!
7::	VOTE FOR KAT!!!!!!
8::	tumaba ka pa ng konti ah XD
9::	he was a really really good seatmate...
10::	i wish i could be more like you, pb! XD
11::	siobe, perk up! magpractice ka magspeech samin! talk to us!!!
12::	you look taller. i think hahaha.
13::	you look chubbier without the glasses
14::	you're mean!!!!
15::	i misshooooo!
16::	what's wrong with you! hahaha study! XD LAVOOO
~*Random*~
Do you love 1?:	OF COURSE!!!!
Is 2 your best friend?:	HELL YEAHH!!!!
Is 3 a man?:	ahaha MAAAAAYBE XD
Is 4 weird?:	hell yeah
Have you ever wanted to kiss 5?:	NUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!
Ever wanted to KILL 6?:	NAH
Ever hugged 7?:	yep!
Ever did anything sexual with 8?:	NO XD
Ever been drunk with 9?:	i've never been anything with 9, really.
Ever hung out with 10?:	of course!
Is 11 cool?:	quiet ahhahahahahha. XD
Who is 12 dating?:	13.
Does 13 love muffins?:	i dunno.
Is 14 smart?:	maybe XD
If 15 dumb?:	nah!
Are you friends with 16?:	yeah!
Good Couple?
1-2:	nope
3-4?:	yeah.
5-6?:	love-hate XD
7-8?:	ewan! XD
9-10?:	nah. maybe not.
11-12?:	AHAHAH NO. someone will get injured.
13-14?:	sana 5 and 14 XD WAAAAAH XD bulgaran!
15-16?:	nah.
1-5?:	ANO BA
6-10?:	lazy
11-15?:	lazy
2-4?:	lazy
4-8?:	lazy
3-6?:	lazy
16-12?:	lazy
13-7?:	lazy
2-13?:	lazy
1-4:	lazy
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The One With the First Survey

Basic Survey [ 87 questions]
** basics **
Name::	Michelle Andrea Loanzon Del Rosario
Nickname::	Mishie, Michelle, Michi, Mich, Mish, Celestina Warlock haha.
Location::	tha world!!!
Gender::	Babailan! XD JOKE. (according to Sir Stuart the answer to this should be) Feminine. haha!
Birthplace::	Capitol Medical Center (Quezon City)
Birthstone::	Topaz
Birthday::	November 19, 1988 (dont forget this!)
Sign::	Micah would say... "your scorpio mind, michi"
Righty or Lefty::	Righty!
Screenname::	Celestina Warlock
** your looks **
Height::	5? 5"1? Sad... pano na si Jun?! 6"+! Eh si Shun?! 6"++!!!
Weight::	okay, i'll wait. WAHE CORNY!!!
Shoe size::	8. bah. leave me alone
Hair Color::	brownish-black
Hair Length::	long...
Eye Color::	dark brown
Size::	...size? this is way general
Glasses::	supposed to be, but I'm stubborn. and if i do, walang grado. haha!
Braces::	never! i have magnificent teeth
Piercings::	yep. one on each ear. but if i had gone with my mom, i'd probably have two or three on each
Tattoos::	ahahaha! the henna tattoo I have on my left arm right now
** fashion **
Where do you shop::	usually the cheaper places (Sm, Landmark, Surplus shop) or clothes sent by my mummeh
What do you usually wear::	Jeans and some top I pick out. I have fashion moods
What kind of shoes do you wear::	chucks :D
Do you wear a watch::	not anymore since it got baroque. haahah
Color you never wear::	neons. NEVER.
Color you wear at least once a week::	black.
Something you wear everyday::	underwear, dude.
Do you wear make up everyday::	nope. not on any day.
Make up essential::	when I do wear? powder. haha
Most cherished piece of clothing::	the red and white-stripped blue tshirt that my mom handed down to me that belonged to my grandmother.
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing::	skimpy outfits. YELCH
Do you wear belts::	no, but i have 2.
Do you wear hats::	nope.
How many pairs of shoes do you have::	wow.. a lot.
** music **
Favorite kind of music::	Jpop and emo songs XD
Least Favorite::	heavy metal rock and hiphop. i just dont okay.
How many CD's do you have::	6. (the orig ones anyway. wahahaha!)
Last CD you bought::	soundtrack of Harry Potter 3 (2 years ago!)
Whats in your CD player right now::	nothing. its called IPOD. look it up.
Do you download music::	hell yeah. will die if i didnt
** Favorites **
Color::	You dont know me at the very least or at all if you cant answer this one!!!
Number::	10. :D the longer one? 1083125.
Season::	winter!!! well, if we had winter. but i swear, winter.
Ice cream::	caramel brownie of DQ!!
Website::	Deviantart, hana yori vids!!! :D
Quote::	"EH?"
Store::	none..
Band::	ARASHI!!!! :D
Singer::	hmm... Matsumoto-kuuuunn~! Jk. Dont have one.
Rapper::	Jun? Sho? hahaha. Dont like rap eh. Eminem maybe.
Group::	ARASHI! XD
Song::	Sakura Sake!
Movie::	LOTS. My Best Friend's Wedding, Peter Pan, the Holiday, Little Manhattan, Harry Potter, Lemony Snicket and many MANY more.
Actor::	Matsumoto Jun-san, Oguri Shun-san, Rupert Grint, Adam Brody, Jude Law, Jack Black, Jim Carry. :D Most have "J"s
Actress::	Sandra Bullock, Cameron Diaz, Jennifer Aniston, lots
Kind of movies::	romantic comedy :D pure humour
Place to be::	my room, JAPAN!!!! ENGLAND!!!!!
Time of day::	agaw-dilim time.
Clothing Brand::	none in particular
Animal::	penguin! XD or the Monokuro Boo!
Food::	aisukurimu! the flavor of happiness! XD jk. dunno lots!
Holiday::	Xmas! :D
Shape::	star
Restaraunt::	lots!
Fast food place::	McDo and KFC!
Boy's name::	Noelle and Ron
Girl's name::	Celestina and Jane
Word::	shmiddle! XD
Month::	November of course!
Candy::	right now? Hawhaw! XD
** love and relationships **
Sexual Preference::	guys. i'm no babailan (although I can enumerate a few who are XD)
Boyfriend or Girlfriend::	what i'd prefer? a boyfriend of course. :D but do i have one? yes. In my dreams hahaha
Crush::	RUPERT!!!JUN!!!! SHUN!!!... Ohno? XD
Do you believe in love at first sight::	nope.
What do you look for in a guy/girl::	i dont know. when i fall, i just fall.
Best physical feature::	smile
Best hair color::	i dunno. XD
Best eye color::	dunno.
** randoms **
Do you paint your nails::	when i feel like it, but that's rarely and plus, i paint them very badly on my own. jean has to do it for me XD
What color is your tooth brush::	orange XD
What's on your desktop::	my wallpaper and bg in multiply
Do you like roller coasters::	not particularly, no.
Do you do drugs::	medicine... neozep and alaxan usually. but no. no DRUGS.
Are you a virgin::	yeah
Do you have any pets::	yep! CODY (my shihtzu) and CHOCO (my lab) :D
What time do you go to sleep::	usually 11. but obviously its now way past my bedtime!
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Camwhoring For No Reason

to be honest, i have no idea how this came to evolve.!!!!! killing time before Kaspil and it just.. blossomed into the monster that is camwhoring. its a helluva lot of fun though!!!! and these pics are the one from me lang! there are more in kat and alex's phones!!!!

some pics are from last week. i'm putting the ones of Alex's Bday, Valentine's Day and Fair day some where else haha! more of those pics from raech's cam!!!

...my vanity?

that's another story. hahaha!

The One About Being Lost *without* Translation

Okay. For this entry. I think it will be a half-rant, half-emo, half-randomness, half-stupidity and half-seriousness.

See? So many halves in a whole. This entry is stupid already.

But I don't care. I'm ranting.

I don't think... no, I just canNOT think of one other time when I've ever been more or even just as frustrated as I am now. No. For some strange and alien reason, this feels even more frustrating that those "problems" I have about love--as if that wasn't frustrating enough, you know. But now.. NOW.. the one thing that has been keeping me alive and HAPPY this past month frustrated the heck out of me... well, no. It's not the thing perse...

oh, fine. I'll just say it.

I want to learn frickin Japanese.

This isn't a new desire. No, no. It's been there since I was in the fifth grade. Fine, call me an anime nerd/geek/freak-whatever. If you saw my face now, it would be the face of me not caring. No. Nu-uh. But see, why? I don't know. I guess i've always just been entranced about how they spoke and what they were speaking about. The Japanese just seem to come up with the most brilliant things--well, brilliant to me anyway. Since then (that was almost ten years ago by the way) I've always wanted to but people know me, I'm a goddamn procrastinator. It was never like my desire wasn't big enough or I wasn't dedicated enough. I just stop when I feel like taking a break.

I'm getting off topic. So what IS the point?

The point is... I want to learn Japanese now. Like.. I REALLY REALLY REALLLLLLYY want to learn. And this time, I'm serious. Super serious. I've spent the last 3 weeks spending my time in the mall.. at National Bookstore reading japanese books. I speak in broken Japanese phrases and I think my tone of voice is changing into the tone of a japanese person. Perhaps I am a freak. Lay off. When I'm alone, all I can think about is being surrounded with Japanese people and me laughing my head off because DAMMIT, I UNDERSTAND THEM. But hell, that's just in my dreams.

Today, I finally started writing non-gibberish in japanese. Actual words with the actual characters and I frickin understand them. But...

it's just not enough.... there is still so much to learn... and like all things, I want to learn it right away... I want the easy way out to get to that goal...

I realized this when I was watching... well TRYING to watch the newest episode of HYD2...(that's Hana Yori Dango2). It's the one thing keeping a bounce in my step. No, my life isn't a mess or anything, but it keeps the monotony of life away. It gives me something new to look, see, hear, think and talk about. It gives me energy to keep moving.. Like gasoline to a car.

But when I was looking at it.. without the english subtitles... I realized... I still couldn't understand a word.

And oddly...

..i cried.

I. Actually. Cried.

If you think about it... from another person's perspective. it seems totally stupid. Why am I crying because I can't watch a tv show (technically, on the internet, whatever)? It's just a show, you might say.

..but it was more than that. And I'm not just saying it.

it was a painful reminder of how there are just some things you can want more than the entire universe...that you can't have. At least, not right away. No, not as easily as you'd like it to come. I know, learning a language isn't easy. Duh, I'm not THAT stupid. Its dumb and stupid. But I can honestly say that I don't think I've ever wanted anything more than that.. right now, its what I want. That's what sucks about things we want that are intangible.

...I've never been one to want a lot of material things, you know. Why can't I just get one thing? Just...one...

I could say I want a bunch of stuff (clothes, books, etc).. but never as whole-heartedly as the inpalpable ones...

Sure, for people who know how the whole japanese-english translation thing for shows go... I can hear you saying "then just wait for the damn subtitles".

Yeah. I could. Right now, I have no choice. But there will come another time when only the raw version will come out--no translation, no subtitles.... when the only thing I can see are their actions and hear pure gibberish that I wish I knew. Then...then I'd just feel even more frustrated.

it will take patience. I know, I know. I'm used to being told to wait.

BUt i'm not a patient person. No. Not at all. I hate waiting. Ironically though, I always end up doing so. And I can't protest. For something I really want.. for something I really feel strongly about, I'll wait.

But...like now...


I'll be ranting while I do so.


Next time, I should try just keeping my mouth shut. Then maybe I won't have to wait so long.

Perhaps someone out there is having fun watching me squirm around like a little fish on land.

No, Bucko. Next time, I'm not letting you have your fun.



Because it's my turn.

The One About the Video of the Night

http://alcarin.multiply.com/video/item/4
this is from Chris' multiply so watch it. haha. its a video taken from his phone on the lazy susan on my bday dinner in the podium. Funny because of everyone's faces! :)

The One Transfered from Notepad Paper

it feels unnatural for me to be writting (well now in this case typing what I wrote) like this right now. Perhaps its because I'm alone or perhaps it's because there isn't any homework to be done. Or maybe, jus perhaps, it's because I'm really contemplative right now. I'm confused, actually, about just what it is I'm really thinking about...

"Everything was great and you thought you were set, but then something happens that makes you think that maybe things are too great, making you realize that maybe you were just fooling yourself..."

I don't know why I thought of this, but I have this gut feeling that it has something to do with the people around and not around me. A while back, I realized that I was just fooling myself that I was happy with all my friends when I really wasn't. I have moved on and went on a journey, finding friends that finally all made me completely happy. Make no mistake, I was happy once before, and there was a time that each and every one of them made me feel alive, but I realized that I could see something else in some of them. No, I have not totally abandoned them, of course not, but as transistion comes, I cannot very well let myself slip and fall behind. That's why i went on to find more. I found them and I found myself being ecstatic all the time--never have I felt so vibrant in such a long time. That breath of fresh air woke me up, telling me that I was still alive and that the drama of High School hasn't left me for dead.

In between, I also found a certain friendship that I can't quite place in a specific spot, or ever quite believe I have. It was a hidden (though not totally so) and almost secret friendship with conversations that never required us to open our mouths and use our voices. These conversations never happened in the same room, or in real time some days. They just happened naturally. And that, in a way, made me feel that there was a friend somewhere out there that only I had, that only I could talk to anytime, no matter where I was or was doing. It was as if this friend of mine lived in a whole other place altogether because I couldn't see or hear him. It was as if he existed to only me, in my imagination and mind. it made me feel, though I'm probably not, special to him too. My escape from the resot of the world was that and for the longest time, I felt like I couldn't get any hapier--even without attaining the silly things I had wanted in High School.

But recently, I have found myself lost. Some where between this world and that, I realized that I wasn't in one definite place. I, unintentionally, somehow, woke myself up and made myself take a step back to find where I really am in my self-made map. In a place, neither here not there, I found myself still a distance away from the life I had, the life I should have and the life I thought I had.

Realistically speaking, who was or am I to these new-found friends of mine? It is little less than a year since we've all first met, but there is still so much to know and they still have strings attached. They, unlike me, are still very much in contact with their pasts, something that I personally don't want or have very little cling to anymore. Ther presents? Their pasts are still part of it but I only still hold on to very little of my own past. Therein lies the difference of why we, the six of us, do not have a single, solid world that belong to only us.

And, again, realistically speaking, am I just over-exaggerating by saying that I feel like I have an almost imaginary friend that replies to me? Is it fair to say that we are close when we hardly even get to see each other's face and even when I know, truthfully, just very little about this "friend" of mine? Could I just be fooling myself by using such flowery words to decorate such a description of our "relationship"?

What am I? Who am I? What are these things and people in my life? Who am I to them? to anyone?

I have an unusual skill, you see. This skill of mine allows me to be anyone, anywhere and in anytime that I want. I use my imagination, detailed and full, to take me "there" whenever I wish--in daydreams, dreams, consciousness, unconsciousness, aware and unaware--in my thoughts, I can make my own reality. A friend of mine can testify to this: I told her when we were younger (about twelve or so) that a character I liked from a TV show was with me all the time and I trully believed he was! I got absorbed in that fantasy that it became my reality. I could write and paint down a world in my head that I could just jump into it, where places and people are so real that I find it hard to tell the difference from reality and imagination. This is why I can sit and be alone without totally being bored--spending hours on it--because I'm off to another world. Call me mental, that's just how I am.

Perhaps it is because of this skill of mine that has brought this epiphany to me. It may be because I imagined these things to be so that I think these events and feelings are real, clouding my vision of reality. it may be this or...

...or  that maybe I am in reality, but no one just sees it the way I do.

And that leaves me more lost than ever.

Is it too late to ask for directions?

Because I'd rather be somehwere...than in the middle of no where.

*end of the longest and most serious entry of February* haha.

The One About the Background Music Moment

Do you know how, in movies, there are these parts wherein there are just movements happening in the screen, no dialogue, no interaction, where the main character is usually just walking or looking around, and there is this really appropriate background music playing?

yeah, that is what you call--or atleast--what I have deemed to call the Background Music Moment. These moments are not necessarily emo, but its easier to spot when you're in that certain mood, yes?

I was able to spot three such moments for me recently and I dare not cheat by using my iPod. The background music moments I have are completely spontaneous and unplanned, which I think is the best part.

Take this morning for example: sitting in the passenger seat of my car while my dad drove me to school, holding my pack of tissues and looking out into the space beyond the window and the outside that stood behind it, then from the radio, burst out If Only by the Calling. It was, how do you say it, shocking! It wasn't until the chorus was sung a third time did I realize I was having an Background Music Moment, and I could even imagine how I'd look like if it were being shot in a film (me and my fantasies)...

"If only love could find us all,
if only hearts didn't have to fall..

And if somehow fate were in my hands

Would it be enough to understand

Why we feel lost in a world so small

If only love could find us all..."

And I could remember snapping back into reality and twisting my head so fast, looking at the radio that my dad said "what's wrong?" and that I had to say that I thought I felt my phone vibrate and that it made me jump. But, beh, it was the song.

What's my point in bringing this up? Well, nothing really. But I think its in the totally random thoughts that you get to peek into who a person is and what he or she is really thinking.

Don't you agree?

And, well, it may partially be because I want a good kind of background music moment. Haha. I had one when I was determined to pass this exam and.. well, it worked! Haha! It was  Watch Me Shine, the music in Legally Blonde where Elle studied her ass off. So, yeeeaaaah. Haha!

My mind is actually too shallow right now to touch emo topics. And even if it were in a deep mood...wweeeelll...