A Shocking Image

I witnessed a murder today.

And this isn't some way to just start my entry. I really did see it actually happen. I mean, I'm sure we've all been exposed to media, and surely we've all seen hit and runs. But really, I never thought I would ever witness something like it.

It's one of those cliches they've said about life. How it's too short to waste. Whether you're old or young, small or big, male or female, death strikes you and at any time it pleases. You've heard those instances where someone says "oh, I just saw that person a few minutes ago!" after they've been told of their death. It really is amazing how we just don't realize it until it hits us in the face, or runs someone over, whichever.

But it's true. Life is too short. If we don't spend every second of it enjoying and being happy, then we surely would just be wasting our lives. To those who are just loitering out in places, do something constructive and enjoyable! There's always a way, there really is.

It's ironic how this is coming from a person like me who, not too long ago, was probably the biggest pessimist in the whole entire universe, but people should seriously believe me now that I'm living on the brighter side of the world, hopefully my residence here would be permanent! I was thinking, you see, while commuting and walking around the campus. There would always be a moment where I would stop talking to whoever I'm with at the time and detached myself long enough to think of the things that have happened. No matter what bad things have happened, I still end up being happy. I really don't know how or why or even when my outlook started to change but it sure is a whole lot better. I found myself thinking, "Oh wow, a lot of crappy things have happened to me today, but hey look I'm still smiling. Awesome! Why is that?" Perhaps, I told myself, that it is a "why?" that should be left unanswered. I mean, c'mon! Why should you question something you like, right? It's like asking your parents why they'd buy you a new laptop or a new phone, you know? I guess that's how I'm starting to look at things now.

Say today...let's see...what potentially crappy things have happened?
1. upon arriving at school I immediately realized i left my phone in the car. Dammit.
(the save: I got to use a blockmates phone fast and my dad drove back to me. Yehey!)
2. i tripped, again, on the stairs going up to the 8th floor. yoohoo
(the save: no one saw me)
3. I fell asleep in crithin again. Dammit. I have no idea why that keeps happening!!!
(the save: I had sudoku to solve. Plus, I still understood the lecture)
4. I tripped again, going to Malate.
(the save: my instant reaction was laughing)
5. Malate meeting. I just didn't wanna be there then.I have to go to this criticisim session thingy!
(the save: I have a dance practice for my cousin's debut so I might have to skip that as official excuse)
6. I witnessed a murder. Dammit. Why, oh, why?!
(the save: ...this one had no save.)
7. long elevator lines again.
(the save: the elevator came down faster)
8. the inthrop classroom was hot. again. and I don't mean that in a cool way.
(the save: i laughed at the irony)
9. we had to do a stupid inthrop activity again.
(the save: it isn't due till friday)
10.lost my bag zipper.
(the save: its not that hard to open it without the zipper)
11.had physics. again.
(the save: dismissal next subject)
12. now, i'm sneezing again.
(the save: i drank some medicine already)

horray for dismissal time adventure and fun with Kringle. Amen.

See? I still look on the bright side of life! Amazing and fun, aint it? But, still, i'm sad and traumatized about the murder I witnessed. I saw the tire of the Cr-v go over limbs, body and head...it was horrific. And no, I do not mean that in a "that was so awesome!!!" way.... That was the first death I've witnessed...how do you get over something like that? To just understand and to accept that just a few seconds ago...living and breathing...I...can't...

well...that's life....




Rest in peace...


Sweet little white kitten. Though I only caught a glimpse of you today (and not a very pleasant glimpse at that) I still love you.

I pray. Amen.