The One About the Flavor of Happiness

Before I begin, I would just like to say that the stupidest thing for today just occured to me. I actually took minutes to debate with myself (just now) whether "happiness" is spelled with one "n" or two. One "n" looks about right to me and that's how I decided to stick with that.

Chikusho; watashi wa bakeru janai. (Damn it, I'm an idiot). Haha.

So, now what? What was I going to rant abou--

..AH YES. See, there's just something wrong with my brain, my memory slips every other minute. I should go to my neurologist.. well, I should probably hire one first and then..

AHAHAHAHA. I made a joke!


You don't get it?

No?

Yeah, neither do I.

..what was the... OH YEAH. Right. Before I forget it again, I should probably start ranting, or talking or.. whatever.

WARNING: the following paragraph (more or less) contains scenes and ideas that come from the mind of an obssessed Hana Yori Dango fan.

If you do not know what HYD is, that's fine because I will be explaining it anyway, but for the next few ideas.. well, you get the point. This is a peek into my mind, if you will.

Let me then just explain before I continue: (if you dont want spoilers, I suggest you look away, if you dont really care, then read on)

In the end of season one, Makino gave Doumyouji a cookie that he ended up keeping for an entire year because he left for New York. When he first saw the cookie, he said in his mocking yet really amusing way (he liked Makino and his meanness was just a sort of cover up for his real feelings, if you will), "Pfft. Poorly made". He never ate the cookie and always kept it in the box she gave it in. Now, in season two, he comes back to Japan. He decides to forget her and finally takes a bite of the cookie and finally throws it into the trash (he bit a year-old cookie. i know, but leave it be). A few episodes later, he finally realizes that he cant forget her like he thought and goes to her really delapidated (i dont want to debate with myself. If it has wrong spelling, i dont care) house and they talk. BTW, this might be long...

Doumyouji: All of a sudden, its just the two of us now.

Makino: Eh? You're the one that kicked Suzumo (that's her brother) out of the room.

D: That's not true! I just wanted him to study!

M: You're so full of it! You just wanted to be alone with me, right?

D: That's not why. I just...

M: Don't.

D: ..eh?

M: Don't say anything weird right now. I'm actually at my limits. I've been through a lot.

D: ...Makino. Have you ever eaten a fig?

M: Huh?

D: What do figs taste like?

M: Well, aren't they sweet and sour?

D: You know, when you cut a fig in half, it looks like a heart. That's why they say that its bittersweetness...is the flavor of love.

M: what the heck...

D: A Pakistani I knew in New York told me that.

M: are you telling the truth?

D: But to me... the flavor of love...tastes like... that lousy cookie you made.

OMG, watching it again is giving me shivers right there!!!! There are a lot of pauses in between. Its a really dramatic scene. hehe!

Okay, okay.. here's the fangirliness now...

I dreamt of Doumyouji a few nights later. Addict, I KNOW! Haha. I forget how it starts... Basta, I'm with him and he's all depressed about how Makino isn't replying to him about her own feelings. I don't know why he knows me or why I'm with him, but I am. The part I remember clearly is at night, in one of those sidewalk ramen stalls that are still open at, what? 9pm at night. He and I are eating ramen (i've never even eaten ramen, you know. in my dream would be the first time) and he's sad. Neither of us are talking. Then I look at him with a really sad face and then I cheerfully say that I'm going out of the stall for a while and that he should keep eating. I go out, and in my dream I don't follow my point of view. It stays there with him as I go and it concentrates on him looking confused but still eating his ramen. A few moments later, my dreamself comes back in and hands him a popsicle.  "Here," I say to him (Btw, he's japanese yet in my dream i'm talking to him in english. He seems to understand what i'm saying though, just now why I'm saying them). He looks at me and then at the popsicle with a sad and confused face. Then I say, "Ramen isn't helping. Eat this. I guarantee you'll feel better." He takes it and i look ahead, away from him. "I know I'm no doctor or the heart or of the mind, but for some reason and for me anyway whenever I'm sad, I just have to eat ice cream and I feel better. Some people eat ice cream to wallow, I eat it to be happy because ice cream--" I look at him "--is the flavor of happiness".

DAMN IT I'M SUCH AN ADDICT.

But yeah, that's how it went. The dream ended there and I woke up. This dream was about three weeks ago when I first watched that episode and since then I *have* been refering to ice cream as the flavor of happiness. Sappy, I know.. but it is totally true. I don't eat ice cream that often, but when I do, sad or happy, I always feel like jumping in giddiness. Perhaps its the sugar rush, but still... It oddly always does make me happy.

I think that it is the one material thing that makes me happy all the time. It's effect is temporary, sure, but its always there when you need it, plus, the effect is always the same. It's like an upper that's not a drug! haha.

Since then too, I've decided that I'm good with creating those drama lines. haha. Not original, I agree but you have to admit.. that flavor of happiness thing is pretty darn cool! So far, I've told the "ice cream=flavor of happiness" personally (by that I mean from dream to actuality) to two people and they seem to like it. I hope that even if I wasnt able to give them popsicles, that it somehow helped them to smile despite their emo-ness at the time.

..there. That's totally random and I dont know how to close this entry. But I hope that you got, despite my weird rantings, something from this too. After all...

I'm just a crazy whacked fan. But still.. a HAPPY crazy whacked fan.

Correction: a happy crazy whacked fan who really REALLY wants to go to Japan!

HONTO NI IKITAI~!!!!!!! Kyaaa~


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